senyap dah dua hari. tremendously sick. its okay, used to it dah kan. :)
hand phone once again, rosak. i guess dia faham yang i need some time alone.
this pain. and those miserable situation yang i kena pikir tak kesudah, i don't know.
told you, all the whats not pasal jodoh i dah serah pada Dia. janganlah berharap sangat as i pun tak bagi harapan pape. i am that horrible and useless woman. please, don't rely on me as i don't rely to you. be happy. stop hoping. you will feel so much better then. :)
Yes, I am that abnormal kind of woman. So now, go away. 

“Superheroes allow their capes to hang off their backs; but our Superwomen choose to wrap them around their heads.”
-Boonaa Mohammed 
I still miss you and maybe even still like you, but I'm done chasing you. :) Eat that.
i'm sorry i've restraint this heart so tight. i'm sorry i can't give you what you want. i'm sorry i've been such a heartless woman, i'm sorry i've been too rude to you. i'm sorry i can't say 'i love you too'. i'm sorry.
usah diragui ketabahanmu
usah diragui dugaanNya
kamu adalah zaujah terbaik hanya untuk rejalmu yang terbaik
sakit hatimu tika ini, pilu peritnya jiwa mu tika ini
ketahuilah, suatu hari nanti, kamu akan berterima kasih untuk semua itu
itu yang mematangkan, itu yang memberi kamu kerdipan syukur terima kasih mengajar segala erti hidup
yang pasti sudah kamu betah ketahui, hanya sementara

lelaki yang meninggalkan kamu itu, bukan hanya kerana dia tidak melihat cinta dihati kamu
bukan hanya kerana dia adalah lelaki yang tidak punya jiwa untuk menghargai kamu
tetapi itu sudah disuratkan olehNya
kerana Dia tahu, lelaki itu bukan yang terbaik untukmu, lelaki itu tidak memegang kunci untuk laluan kamu ke pintu syurga
dan kerana Dia tahu, tulang rusuk yang kamu punya kini bukanlah milik lelaki itu

terimalah sayang
biarkan sayang
lepaskan segala yang membebankan jiwa kamu
cinta yang disemaiNya di hati kamu itu terlalu bernilai untuk disiakan
biarkan segala, terima seadanya
andai punya derita bagi kamu, pasti jua ada bahagia menunggu
ku ingin kau ingati ini
kamu adalah zaujah terbaik, hanya untuk rejalmu yang terbaik.

They were off to run after their dreams. Away. Too far I couldn't hear their laugh, I couldn't wipe their tears. Too hard to let go of so many people. For their sake, only then, I knew they gone for a prefect reason. They will be soon home, here, and again, to mend a crybaby, to soothe a heart. Afterall, that's what they really are, a good person with a good heart.

My dearest adik, Amir and Hilmi, be good, be healthy, be patient, be everything that you should be, be everything that you want to be. Have a blast years, have a tremendous experiences, have a one wholesome of barokah from Him. I miss you guys already. :(

To Faiz, Shakur, Raihan, Hidayati, Farhana, Hafiz, Zahidah, Shafikah, Abdullah, Syairah. All the best to you all. Be with Him, and He will always be with you all. InshaAllah.

Love endlessly, Tia. :*  
I've been ultimately strong this lately, but unfortunately, I've forgot one thing, this heart, it's still fragile. Much fragile from what I've could ever imagined.

But alhamdulillah, at least, I know, it's still working, it's still playing its role.
And alhamdulillah, like Allah said, "Remember Me, and I will remember you and only in the remembrance of Allah do heart finds peace and comfort."

Heart, is the source of life, where we find our true identity, and where the path to God may be found, the junction for us to find happiness and syurga, inshaAllah. :)
deru angin.
tiba menyapa pipi.
kelamnya hati disambut titisan air mata.
hati ini kadang tertanya.
tidak peritkah disakiti.
terpana seketika, apabila katanya, aku sudah biasa.
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My teeth.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes, my mother. Of course I would.
4. Do you plan outfits?
Most of the time, no.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
My shirt.
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
Should I?
9. Did you meet anybody new today?
10. What are you craving right now?
One crusty pan of pizza.
11. Do you floss?
Oh yeah.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
Since ages.
14. Are you emotional?
Err, yes!
15. Would you dance to the taco song?
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Can I say both?
18. Do you like your hair?
Pretty much.
19. Do you like yourself?
No, I'm useless. :(
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Perhaps. I don't really fancy one.
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Cheese=me. Get it?
22. What are you listening to right now?
Pompa Bensin's songs.
23. How many countries have you visited?
Unfortunately, 4. Just 4.
24. Are your parents strict?
Yes. They are so particular about something.
25. Would you go sky diving?
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
No, I think I'm polite much to do that.
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
My bed.
29. Have you ever been in a castle?
Palace of the golden horses counted kan? lolx
30. Do you rent movies often?
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
Last time, azim or piau.
32. Have you made a prank phone call?
33. Do you own a gun?
34. Can you count backwards from 74?
Satgi malam I cuba.
35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
My family.
36. Brown or white eggs?
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
38. Ever been on a train?
Just the ERL. I'm a little phobic when it comes to train.
39. Ever been in love?
40. Do you have a cell-phone?
41. Are you too forgiving?
I think. :I
42. Do you use chop sticks?
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
Going out with me. Haha.
44. Can you use chop sticks?
45. Ever have cream puffs?
Which type? ;p

I don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how atrange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. How the poeple who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promioses despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it's easier than working things out.

But afterall, they are all Allah's plan. And indeed, He knows best. He will never let His Servants suffer beyond their ability. :)

Well, my mind is flooded with the ideas of updating my blog but no, they never make it. Believe me, the ideas came out even when I'm showering, pretty sad I couldn't get my finger tape on them but nevermind, here I am now.

First and foremost, Happy Eid Mubarak for all muslims out there. Selamat Hari Raya Aildilfitri. Its never to late, ain't it? I honestly minta maaf if during all this time I've been not-so-good daughter, sister, friend and such and obviously I am not. Maaf zahir batin andai ada yang terasa, I'm not a nice person, I knew that, I'm sorry I've broke some hearts, I'm sorry I talked so harsh, I'm sorry I am being such an ignorance. Ramadhan away, I hope that what Ramadhan taught me, will remain in me, will remain in teaching me to be a good muslim, to be good, just to be good. InshaAllah.

Terima kasih ada yang jemput pergi open house, I can only make some of it. Betul betul rasa bersalah. :I Masa sangat suntuk, I just couldn't tapi inshaAllah, I'll find some masa untuk pergi. Bukan bulan raya bukan bermaksud kita tak boleh pergi ziarah menziarahi kan?

I rindu semua orang. We are getting apart. My mistakes I know, for being busy-for-nothing. I'll make it right this time, I'll make it right. Kalau betul Allah izinkan hubungan kita sampai bila bila, inshaAllah, we are gonna make through of the tides, ups and down. I sayang semua orang, I don't want to lose any one of you.

Till then, peace. :)

p/s : Mimie, I rindu you. :(