SHE IS THE BEST COMPANION.
SHE IS THE BEST SISTER.
SHE IS A FRIEND.
SHE IS EVERYTHING THAT I'VE COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE.
THANK YOU ALLAH FOR LETTING ME TO KNOW HER.
AND INDEED, SHE IS MY SAYANG.
I LOVE YOU SAYANG.
MAY ALL THE HAPPINESS IN THIS WORLD WILL BE YOURS.

i miss you. no doubt.


REASONS FOR CRYING?

1) ......
2) ......
3) ......


no reason. a moron. );
You love someone, you open yourself up suffering, that’s the sad truth. Maybe they’ll break your heart, maybe you’ll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself in the same way. Those are the risks. That’s the burden. Like wings they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us. Burdens which allow us to fly.


)';
ALLAHUAKBAR. ALLAHUAKBAR.
:|
Words scar more than you think. Think before you speak.
This is life.
You'll ever realize the value of something.
Or someone unless it is taken or moves away from you.
So be happy and star enjoying what you have now.


p/s: I'm really am moving on. It's you who still hold on to the past. (:
" Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life. "
'YOU CAN'T HAVE GOOD THINGS ALL THE TIME'

Whoever said this, he is absolutely and definitely right. Things. Can be either good or bad. And right now, at this very moment, it is bad. Say whatever you want, but yes, I can be influenced JUST LIKE THAT. tccchh. Oh dear heart, please be strong. Ignore the rubbish talk. Ignore what the bad people had told you. Stop looking around and blame yourself. Stop thinking about what others would think. Ignorance sometimes is a need dear. You can smug, you can sigh, you shall do whatever you want to, but for once, bound the heart to not-to-be-broken again. I hate making decision. Seriously. I'm not good in it.


A MIST IN A FOG. that's what I am now. that's what I am.

dear Allah, please me stronger. hold me to this sentence. thank you Allah. You have better plan for me, kan? I knew that. That's why I love you more than whatever-else in this world. (:



GOODMORNING PEOPLE.
peace jugak. (:

p/s: i'm moving on.
KITA SEMUA KAN KAWAN DAN SAHABAT. TAKNAK PIKIR PELIK PELIK LAH YE? TAKNAK PIKIR LEBIH LEBIH LAH YE?
peace!
^.^
NAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK KELUAR.

SAPE FREE TOLONG CALL KE TEXT KE. PLEASE? HAHAHA.

DAH DUA HARI MAKAN MCD SORANG SORANG.

ORANG TGK MACAM SAYA NI ALIEN TAMAN SETIAWANGSA PULAK.

-__________________________________________________-
HI KODOK.

haha buruk seposen nama awak. tula sape suh cakap saya lesbian. taaaaakk ke haru. saya straight no belok belok tau tak. adohai. susah jugak ek orang narrow-minded macam kodok. sian kodok. dah lama tak makan lalat ke? saya masih ada agama, ada iman. tak terpesong menonong ikott je bende pelik camtu. dilaknat Allah. nauzubillah. saya masih sayang Dia dan agama lah. hai kodok, ke awak nak sgt kapel ngan saya? wow! cakap depan depan lah coward. tayah nak guna formspring form poligami bagai. hahaa. saya rasa ceria lah panggil awak kodok. macam comel tapi buruk. BYE.
macik SHARIFAH SYAMIMI SYED OMAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hee saje rindu. aayuh keluar bersama sama saya maseh menunggu awak. :D
everything is settled down. relieved? yes. tired? yes. but to quit? hee tadelah. suka kot.
haven't cried (whole-heartedly) for like, two weeks. TWO WEEKS! yaiy! sehat mata sehat.
been surrounded by beautiful and lovely people, they really are treating me well. ni sayang sampai hujung dunia neh. hehe.

nak pegi kuantan, kl, mmu. please jangan ada aktiviti laen kt sini. nanti tak jadi pegi lagi. nak tolak ajakan orang memang tak ah. hee sanggup je cancel itu ini. haih. fathiah fathiah. -.-

oh, rindu ZAINAB, SYUKRIAH, AYU, KEMA. kalau budak budak empat horang ni baca ni, haa tolong ek ajaksss keluar. haha.

amm. mati idea. ceih.




oh one more thing, arini nak keluar, merata rata round kb perabih minyak kete. sape nak turut sama memeriahkan suasana(err?) ayuh! hahaha dah senget bye people!
NUR IZNI BT MD ADNAN.

she is my sister.
she is my soul.
she is my secret passage.
she is my everything.

happy birthday dear.
may Allah bless you. as always InshaAllah.
may He keeps continuing your happiness.

I love you sister. was and still. (:
NIK ANURA SAFIYA.
my loveliest sister ever. you can count on me oya. through tears and laugh. kakak love you. (:


HELLO OYA. KAKAK MISS YOU.


p/s:sory curik gamba oya. tehee. laenkali kene amek gamba kita pulak ye? loveyou!
too many happy things happened. the dinner, the class, the meet-up, the EVERYTHING. even loads of works make me happy. niceee right? hee.

the dinner, dinner bersama volunteers cheng ho. geez. akhirnya rindu terubat. tapi skang dah rindu dorang balek . hehehe. thanks for everything dearest. you all are the best people in my life. (;

and the class, thanks to bonsai photostudio. dan semua. (: much fun, much knowledge gained.

much love, everyone! (:
unless you lived my life, please don't simply judge me. who are you to judge me? really.
Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.
jaoh jaoh benci.
jaoh jaoh tak suka.
yang saya tahu, saya suka sayang orang. jangan salah paham. terima kaseh. (:

I'm not the best servant of the Almighty God,
I'm not the best daughter,
I'm not the best friend,
I'm not the best leader,
I'm not the best follower,
I'm definitely no angel,
Who never does any wrong.

rindu my girls. seriously. skang susah sgt nak kuar umah. have no idea kenapa ayah susah sgt nak kasi kebenaran skang. blame the unhealthy body! yes. hehe.



sumpah rindu.
nanges tadi sbb rindu sgt.

You know someone is a true friend when you are about to break down and cry, but they'll say the stupidest thing just to make you smile.



you know who you are. much love friends, much love. (:
YOU'VE RUINED MY LIFE FOR LIKE, FEW MINUTES. YES, FEW MINUTES. AND THAT'S IT. I HAVE MY LIFE AND YOU HAVE YOURS. I BELIEVE IN KARMA. AND ALLAH. I BELIEVE HE ALREADY SET THINGS UP FOR ME. BETTER THINGS. AND YOU? I PRAY AND I HOPE THE BEST WILL COME OVER. NO GRUDGES GIRL. I TELL YOU, NO GRUDGES. WELL, THINGS HAPPENED FOR REASONS RIGHT. I BET THIS ONE AS WELL. MY ONE AND ONLY ADVICE, PLEASE. STOP THE HEART CRIME. LET ME BE THE LAST ONE THAT YOU'D HURT. NO ONE ELSE. FULL STOP. BUT MY FRIEND, AFTER ALL THE MESS YOU DONE, I STILL LOVE YOU. I'M STILL AND I WILL FOREVER. THAT'S MY WEAKNESSES. AND PLEASE DON'T MAKE IT AS REASON FOR YOU TO HURT ME AGAIN. FAREWELL FELLA. FAREWELL.
its you. );
cukupppppppppppp pantang kalau ade KAWAN yang perangai macam awak. ohh, time susah mengendeng menggesel sini. ah sudah lah. lenkali pegilah kt orang laen. dah banyak kali kasi peluang neh. manusia pon ade tahap kesabarannya. tak penat pulak kan saya asyik nanges je pasal awak. dah memang air mata saya tuk awak sorang. MEMANG. please. get a life. i won't be regretting the moment you step away from our friendship. seriously. err maybe not. dah merata orang pesan. JANGAN LEMBUT HATI SANGAT. NANTI DIA PIJAK KEPALA YOU. tp saya degil. degil sgt. sbb bagi saya, awak kawan saya. sahabat. the one that i can count on. someone that i can rely on. tp sayangnya, its you who using me. partially taking all the chances. and wasted them. next time, tolong kaji diri sendiri tu dulu boleh? so that you tak kan lukakan hati orang laen. i can't imagine what would others buat kalau bende ni jadi kt dorang. but for me, mcm ni lah. penakot. cakap je kt blog, kt facebook. tp kalau depan depan, layu. urgh pengecut! saya mmg tak reti nak cari gadoh mmg sgt tak reti, but you should have be thankful enough that i didn't mention your name. kalau tak, buat malu makpak je. ish. sedih betol taleh ckp. THANKS LAH FOR EVERYTHING. semoga awak dirahmatiNya salu. GOODBYE!

);
you and i both know what do we feel. but you and i both are too shy to say it.


hehehhe comel. x)
kakak, NUR HIDAYAH GHANI, if you're reading this, please bear in mind that I've been missing you a lot.
Things could be worse, I reasoned, I could be a tea bag, minding me own business, blissfully unaware that I was about to be drowned in boiling water.

He is not a nice guy. I'm lucky that I didn't fall too hard for him before. (:
DEAR MY SHARIFAH SYAMIMI SYED OMAR,

Life isn't as always will be like what we want. No one like ever, said that life is going to be easy. Me neither. But I want you to know, that whatever things happened, you have me. A friend told me, everyone have something that disturbed our fragile mind, its good to know that someone is there for us, kan? (: Mimie, you have to get hurt. That’s how you learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. Don't let anything bring you down. you are one of the strongest girl that I've ever known. Keep hoping, keep praying, and have faith dear, InshaAllah things will be just fine. Allah kan ada. Dia tidak akan menguji hambaNya lebih dari kemampuan hambaNya itu sendiri. itu cara Dia menyayangi kita. ingat tau. sabar ye syg. take care. iloveyou. (:
dah lama tak meroyan. cara baek untuk hilangkan sedih dan saket ye tuan tuan puan puan adik makcik jiran sebelah menyebelah sekalian. ;p
iloveyou.
kaksafra sayang. hehe thanks sbb tag tia psl 24fatcs about me tu. ni baru sempat nak buat sbb macam malu nak gitau sal diri tia hhee.:D

1) sangat suka 'tembak gambar' dan 'ditembak'. ;p
2) sangat tak suka lipas dan kambeng. aaahhh mereka adalah larangan!
3) suka sayang orang. x)
4) suka dresses. kalau jumpe mesti nak beli. hehe.
5) KIPAS-SUSAH-MATI fastfood dan makanan laen yg tak berkasiat. haih -.-!
6) glory glory man united!
7) suka kaler orange, purple.
8) prefer calls more than texts. hehe. maap kalau kdg kdg tak reply msg sape sape. ;p
9) suka drive. kdg sgt slow sbb amek feel. hahahaa.
10) err suka sami yusuf? hahaha in list jugakkkk.

p/s: 10 cukup tak kaksafra? sbb dah tak tahu nak tulis ape. hehe loveyou sister. <3

Cinta yang matang itu, tidak buta dengan kesalahan dan kekurangan orang lain.

Celik, tetapi hati yang cinta akan berdoa dan berusaha untuk memperbaikinya. Kita terima seadanya.

Dia hamba, kita juga hamba.

Hamba itu lemah dan sentiasa bersalah. Pohonlah kemaafan dan bersedia memaafkan.

-ILUVISLAM.COM.


Seringkali hati kecil mengadu sakit, seringkali jiwa meratap hiba. Dugaan dan ujian yang bertimpa-timpa, kadangkala menewaskan semangat yang ada.

Kadangkala kita berasa sendirian dan terasa betapa kita dipinggirkan. Ketika kita menyangka sudah tidak ada lagi yang bernilai dalam kehidupan dan yang kita lihat hanyalah jalan suram di hadapan.

Lantas kita marah kepada Tuhan, kita kecewa dengan ketentuan yang diciptakan. Kita menyalahkan takdir hitam dan saat itu sendu airmata mengaburkan kewarasan.

Lalu kita hilang pertimbangan, di antara keimanan dan rasukan syaitan. Kita hanya nampak jalan mudah untuk melepaskan diri, lalu ada yang seringkali memilih kematian sebagai penyelesaian.

Pernahkah sekali kita memahami alam?

Mengapa Tuhan hadirkan pelangi selepas hujan?

Mengapa Tuhan tumbuhkan bunga selepas kering-kontang?

Hanya daripada benih hitam yang kusam, apabila disirami hujan lantas berbunga cantik. Maka tersenyumlah alam. Betapa indahnya aturan Tuhan.

Mengapa tidak ada hujan berpanjangan atau sinar mentari yang menyinari alam?

Mengapa harus ada putaran alam seperti hitam malam dihiasi bintang?

Mengapa untuk tidak ada sekaligus dalam satu masa?

Mengapa harus hilang sesuatu untuk sesuatu?

Jawabnya senang.

Kerana tidak ada kemanisan tanpa ada kepahitan, dugaan dan rintangan. Mengecapi kebahagiaan memerlukan pengorbanan. Setiap kesenangan akan ada bayaran. Contohnya Tuhan hadirkan pelangi yang indah dan kicau burung yang menyanyikan kedamaian selepas hujan.

Biar hujan di dalam hati, pasti ada pelangi yang menanti. InsyaAllah.

nak outing. nak outing. nak outing. nak outing. tp demam. -.-
EVERYONE, TAKE CARE. PLEASE.
Salam Maal Hijrah.
Alhamdulillah telah diberikan Allah setahun lagi kehidupan.
Semoga tahon mendatang memberikan segala yang baek baek untuk semua orang.
Semoga rakyat Palestin baek baek sahaja.
Semoga mangsa gempa bumi di Indonesia selamat sahaja.
Semoga mangsa banjir di Pakistan sihat sahaja.
Semoga semuaa orang mendapat keberkatanNya.
Ameen.




And as for myself, I do have few goals for this year. And what it is, biar saya dan Allah sahaja yang tahu. Sebab hanya Dia yang akan menghakimi saya kelak. Tanpa pandangan prejudis manusia. Saya sayang Allah. (:
Maka wahai Adam janganlah merendahkan perasaan Hawa, dia memang diciptakan seperti itu. Apabila seseorang wanita mengatakan dia sedang bersedih, tetapi dia tidak menitikkan airmata, itu berarti dia sedang menangis di dalam hatinya. Apabila dia tidak menghiraukan kamu setelah kamu menyakiti hatinya, lebih baik beri dia waktu untuk menenangkan hatinya sebelum kamu meminta maaf. Dan wanita sulit untuk mencari sesuatu yang dia benci untuk orang yang paling dia sayang. -ZUL ADHA KAMARUDDIN.

Hamada Helal - Mohamed Nabeina / حمادة هلال - محمد نبينا



Muhammad Nabina. (:
JANGAN NANGES. PAHAM TAAKKKKKKKKK.


maap garang jap. ;p
nanges.nanges.nanges.tu je yang kamu reti ye fathiah? kesian mata. maap ye. -.-!
ALLAHUAKBAR. SAMI YUSUF. (;

currently is listening to this song. non-stop.
I CAN EAT ALMOST NOTHING BY NOW.
);
MY THROAT IS SWELLING, MY CHEST IS HURTING, MY BACK IS ACHING.
EVERYTHING IS ALL OVER THE PLACES.
-.-
dear ASTHMA, please be nice to me. too tired to pump over the oxygen all the time. )';

thank you loves. you know who you are. x)
mood swing, perhaps?
Alhamdulillah, exam dah abes. yippi! hehe walopon taleh jwb. -.-
yetttt, demam. asal exam mesti demam. asal demam mesti exam. haa cane?
ignt nak kuar nga sheep pagi ni. tp h.a.r.a.p.a.n. hukhuk kalau diizinkanNya lepas zohor arap arap boleh kuar. :D

badan dah tak panas mendidih mcm semalam. :D tp batuk totappp. tapelah dah lame tak batuk ye wahai tekak. silakan saya kasi kebenaran. -.-

hee rindu mmu. tak sabar nak pegi sane. tungggu ye budak budak, mak pegi nanti siyap korang. muahaha.

rindu jugak budak budak cheng ho. haih. lambat lagi bleh jumpe dorang. ;* sobs.sobs.sobs.

till theenn, lots of love. (;
i really do. );

cough.
flu.
fever.
);

its my sayang's birthday. selamat hari lahir NUR HIDAYAH MOHD FAUZI. semoga hidup kamu dirahmatiNya selalu. semoga mendapat teman hidup yg soleh. semoga bahagia. ILOVEYOU. more than you can imagine. (;




rindu mereka.
CINTA ALLAH ITU MELEBIHI KEMURKAANNYA.
Ketika orang lain bergantung pada dunia, gantunglah dirimu hanya pada Allah. Ketika orang lain merasa gembira dengan dunia, jadilah dirimu gembira kerana Allah. Ketika orang lain merasa bahagia kerana kekasih mereka, jadilah dirimu merasa bahagia dengan Allah, dan ketika orang-orang pergi menghadap raja dan pembesar-pembesar untuk mengais harta dan mencintai mereka, jadilah dirimu betul-betul mencintai Allah….
Ibnu Qayyim
Everything that God allow to come our way is with a purpose. He uses even the deepest hurt to mold us into person of worth and value.
i've been twisted my mind all over again. haih. this time around, i'm not joking. mmg betol taleh jwb exam. am thinking of repeating the papers. ya Allah takot. yesterday fundamental of information technology. grrrr. teori kot! mmg menghadap ah jawapanya. and tomorrow law and society, durgh! i'm a law breaker plus... a lazy student. aduhai. tapelah. study jelah mane yg patot, yg laen guna konsep redha. till then, much love! (;
assalamualaikum.

its been quite a time since saya hapdet ini belog.
busyyyy sgt. tak sedar dah bape minggu tak hadap bende ni.
rindu nak menaip membebel bagai hehe. ;p

now, expo cheng ho dah tade.
kami punye team charlie charlie pon dah tade yg tido kt b.o, stay up buat kije itu ini.
tp rinddduuuuu dorang.
makan, minum, bergurau, menanges, tido. sume ngan dorang.
skng ni sume org dah balek umah masing masing.
dah jaoh.
susah nak jumpe balek.
masyaAllah mmg rindu sgt time time ngan dorang.
have no idea tp ukhwah sepanjang expo ni mmg betul betul utuh.
gambar tayah ckp ah.
penoh hah.
jam computer duk isi die ngan gambar kami. heee.

to ustaz din, ustaz rosdi, kakyani, nas, abg anip, abg wan, abg firdaus, ust adib, yusof, shah, kakmira, asma, kak finiey, kak ah, kak najwa, kak dayah, kak amal, kak atiq, far, izzati, farhana, syamila, kak afwa, raja, wani, su, sabiha, shakif, naqi, anuar, azwan, ain, zul, almaarif, sadikin, kak lin, dayah, sibawaiha, najwa dan semuaaaaaaaaaaa, tia sayang korang. (;

p/s : gambar akan dihaplod kemudian. :D
.beautiful nature.


















malu nak tunjuk muka. ;p



p/s : saya budak baru belajar, salah silap haruslah ditegur. (;
I'm ain't a photographer(yet), I'm just love to take photos.
Assalamualaikum.

Haluuuu. I'm home yaww. hehe.
It was a hectic weekend ever.But I have to say its a worthwhile job so far.
Its fun to mingle with everyone else. I have, like toonnnnsss of new friends. Geez, who would think that those strangers are now my friends. And that doesn't take even a day pon to do that. hehe. suka suka. :D


CHENG HO EXPO 2010. KELANTAN-CHINA INTERNATIONAL TRADE FAIR.
This event will be held on 21th-26th of November 2010.
RAKYAT KELANTAN SILA HADIR. this is the biggest event in kelantan so far. so give all your support to our government, to our local traders and to international traders as well. I'll guarantee you that wouldn't be regretting the moment you step on this expo.


hehe buat marketing lah pulak kan.

ONE MORE THING.
I miss everyone. Indeed. Please count yourself in, because you have no idea how much you all meant to me. sweet tak? hehe ;p;p;p

till then,
much love. (;
i'm tired of chasing.
if you want me in your life, i believe it's time for you to run after me.

The Magnetic Fields - Let's Pretend We're Bunny Rabbits


LAGU NI COMEL SANGAT. ;P
I'M JUST CAN'T RESIST THIS.



Bersyukurlah kepada Allah kerana mengurniakan orang yang menyakiti kamu kerana dialah orang yang menabahkan hati kamu. Bersyukurlah kepada Allah kerana mengadakan orang yang tidak mengendahkan kamu kerana dialah orang yang memupuk sifat berdikari kamu. Bersyukurlah kepada Allah kerana menciptakan orang yang menjatuhkan kamu kerana dialah orang yang memperhebatkan kebolehan kamu. Dan bersyukurlah kepada Allah kerana menjadikan orang yang menyeksa kamu kerana dialah orang yang menguji kesabaran kamu.


** I took this from my friend's facebook status. This meant something for me. And even for everyone out there. There is reason behind everything. Be strong is all we need.(:

Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is,is it? Something we'd just have to learn over and over and over again.

My Beloved Ros Syukriah.

Don't let worry squeeze the juice from your life. Take charge of your life by staying busy and focused. Choose to life joyfully in the present, without regret or resentment about the past, or worry about the future. A bit or less, life is a journey and we have to get through of it needless of the pain we endure. I love you and I want you to know that, whatever comes, through your ups and downs, I'm still here for you. Be strong honey. Be strong. And have faith, InshaAllah things will be okay. ♥



p/s : Be happy love. I want you to be happy. I need you to be happy. Remember one thing, Allah tak akan menguji hambaNya melebihi kemampuan hamba itu sendiri. Love you to bits. (:
tell me that please.
A friend told me this.


'It's either you're too stupid or you're too nice.'


I guess its true. );
i wish. i wish. i wish.


Dear Ana Azman.

ILOVEYOU gila gila tau tak. baru bukak skype this morning. and I got something. from you. I'm touched. really.




You know how the saying goes - "you never know a good thing till it's gone"? Screw that. I knew all along how great a person you are, and always will be. There is also this other thing that I'm very sure of, and that is how I'm blessed to have a friend like you. A friend who made me want to write out a soapy email on a school night, just because I hate to see her shade a tear. Just because, I love her. So what if life throws you a lemon? Throw it back and ask for an orange! You do not give up. You, of all people I know, don't just give up on life. You fight, and you fight hard. And that is what I want you to keep doing. If it takes one good long cry, or one hell lot of time to better yourself, then so be it. Have faith, InsyaAllah.. Tieyah, we may be a thousand miles apart, but my thoughts and prayers are always with you. Just know that I'm always here for you, through good times and bad times. Take care, dearest.



Ana, you're really God's gift sent by Him to heal me. I love you. For real. (:
its been quite a time since belog ini dihapdet.
been sick. -.- ujian ujian.

its a beautiful morning indeed.
Alhamdulillah.

morning people. have a nice day. much love.
oh dear.


Can you think of something in your life that someone or a group of people have done for you that really touched you? Maybe something that helped you out of a bind or just showed an extreme, maybe unusual amount of care towards you? I can think of many, many things, that my beloveds had shown me. oh dear. I'm so touched. listening to your voices, your advices, its enough to make me cry all day thinking how stupid I am, sometimes, for crying non-stop and how lucky I am, always, to have such a good best friends that always being by my side. sometimes, i woke up in the middle of the night, crying, because I miss them so much. so much that I've no eligible words for that. enthusiasm of meeting them, hugging them, oh i wish i were a jumper to skip over countries just to do that. to my beloveds, you know who you are. thanks for everything. and whatever comes around, be strong and remember that I'm always here for you. always. not even a second left. semoga persahabatan ini kekal up until the end of our breath. Ameen.
ILOVEYOU.
Friends don't lie and we're friends, right?


please don't do that again. it hurts. -.-
people always leave.
people will always find something wrong with you.
they give up on you and tell you to f off.
as much as i want them in my life, i got used to being left behind,
taking all the blame for them leaving me like i deserved it.
all i have to say is that i'm tired of chasing people,
tired of begging them to stay.
if they want me in their life, i believe it's time for them to run after me.
i've hoped for the change, that it gets better everyday.
i've hoped for the change, but still i feel the same.


);


"jangan melihat ke atas, dengan itu kamu akan merasa sedih akan kekurangan diri.
lihatlah ke bawah, dengan itu kamu akan bersyukur dengan apa yang kamu ada"

tiba tiba teringat quotes tu. i think its time for me to stop grieving and crying.
sakit itu kan penghapus dosa. i might have a whole bundle of sins that somehow Allah gave me this sickness and pain for me to realize all the wrongdoings that i've done. kalau dibandingkan sakit mangsa gempa bumi di yogyakarta, mine is nothing. semoga mereka dilindungi. i wish i were there to help. i really am. my sincere condolences to them, may Allah bless them all. to my friends kt sana, take care of yourself.

grow up fathiah.
Much silence and a good disposition, there are no two things better than these." (Bukhari)

when i do less talk, doesn't mean that i'm not in the good mood or such. not even if i don't want to be disturb. not even that i don't like anyone or someone else. its just because i think being a silencer is the best way. my words won't hurt others, and even my actions wouldn't harm others. this time being, i think i might enjoyed by not being in a group, i would pretty much help in fixing myself, being alone. i have my social life, but sometimes i'm just need time to held in my strength and build up my motivations.(which is nowhere to be find by now). i'm not as prefect as others, i'm not even close, but i'm trying to be like one. i have my own secrets, my own sickness, my own pain, that somehow i think it shouldn't be bragly shown to others. let me bear the pain myself. inshaAllah He will help me. i do believe that things happened for reasons. He wouldn't tested His servant beyond her acquaintance. afterall, He is The Almighty and The Merciful.




**saya senyap bukan kerana benci,bukan kerana sakit hati, but i'm bearing a huge pain and sickness. saya tak berniat untuk mengeluh tapi saya juga bukan berniat untuk menunjuk-nunjuk. i hope this will clarify everything. take care loves. (:



"And if Allah touches you with hurt, there is none who can remove it but He; and if He intends any good for you, there is none who can keep back His favour; He brings it to whom He pleases of His servants; And He is the Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful." [10:107]
a friend told me, "APPRECIATE ONLY THOSE WHO APPRECIATE YOU. BY DOING THAT, YOU WILL NOT BE HURT". somehow, i think it is true. );
Dari Abdullah r.a katanya : “Aku datang mengunjungi Rasulullah s.a.w ketika beliau sakit, lalu kusentuh baginda seraya berkata “Ya, Rasulullah ! Demammu bertambah teruk.” Jawab baginda “Memang demamku sama dengan dua orang kamu.” Kataku pula, “Semoga anda mendapat pahala berganda pula.” Jawab baginda : “Semoga!” Kemudian sabda baginda pula : “Tidak ada seorang muslim yang ditimpa cubaan berupa sakit dan sebagainya melainkan dihapuskan Allah taala dosa-dosanya seperti pohon kayu menggugurkan daunnya.”
I MISS THE HEALTHY ME.
I MISS THE HAPPY ME.
I MISS MY WONDERFUL LIFE.
I MISS MY HAPPINESS IN MMU.
I MISS EVERYTHING THAT I USED TO BE.


i might stand out as strong, brave, calm and happy girl.
but the truth is, i am not.
sometimes, i want to shut the whole world up and just listen to what my heart says.
i want to be just with my family who wouldn't hurt me and give me a peace of mind.
i'm just too tired of taking care of others. i'm repeating this over and over again, i know.
but in the end, the talk is just the talk.
no action. period.




but i've come to realized that i'm not in the position to claim whatever i have, or i had.
Allah is Almighty.
He knows the best and He give the best.
things that i might not know the beautiful of behind, He knows.
He gave me so much, yet i'm still mumbling about everything.
life.
is all about karma.
what goes around, comes around.
mark my words.
i'm not hoping that you will get the punishment, never!
i'm just hoping that one day, you will realized that you shouldn't have do what you've done.

right people.
i have love. in fact, its LOVES.
so many that every night i keep smiling.
so many that i can laugh after i cried.
so many that i know they will be always by my side.
i'm grateful for that.
thank you Allah. (:

sakit. yang hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu.






absolutely true.
we all has had something that worries our fragile mind.
its good to know someone is there for us.

|Hasyimah Mahayidin.