I know what it is to feel like your heart is out of your chest and you can't stop crying and wishing things had never changed.
And all you can do to keep from shaking is to just breathe deeper, and deeper, and deeper until the next wave of nausea is triggered but that punch to the gut that comes out of nowhere.
And the pain becomes physical and slowly creeps throughout every extremity of your body.
And you are sure that nothing else could possibly hurt worse.

I've felt that feeling where you feel like dying from the inside out.
Because you can't figure out what happened, or most importantly why, and you're thinking that maybe it was your fault somehow because even though you feel like hating everything, you know deep down that the only thing you hate right now is yourself.
And there must be some reason why.

I've heard that silence that comes after the blow.
The kind that comes from having too much to say all at once, and not having the words for any of it.
And it's so thick you can feel the pressure of it pounding into your ears like a leaking faucet.
And you wish that someone would just say something.
But at the same time, you know you'd smack the hell out of anyone who opened their mouth.
Things don't always have to be okay.
Things will work out.
If you have faith in Him, and if you trusted His promises, that everything happens for a reason, then you will be okay.
InshaAllah. :)