Don't be sad. Allah is with us. :)
When I'm not talking to you, doesn't mean that I hate you. I just need some spaces to let go of all the negativity in me. I'm not prefect, you see. Being emotional and unstable, well, that's what women are. I got to get a grip of myself first before catching up with you. I'm afraid, if I'm not strong enough, I'll let everyone around me down. I need to pick myself up first. I don't need you to understand my current condition, because all this, isn't what I am.
Allah said :
If you never felt pain or experienced problems, how would you know I'm the Healer?
If you never made a mistake, how would you know I'm the Forgiver?
If you were never hurt, how would you know I am the Comforter?
If you life was perfect, then why would you need Me?
Hadith Qudsi.
Source : Tumblr
If you never felt pain or experienced problems, how would you know I'm the Healer?
If you never made a mistake, how would you know I'm the Forgiver?
If you were never hurt, how would you know I am the Comforter?
If you life was perfect, then why would you need Me?
Hadith Qudsi.
Source : Tumblr
Alhamdulillah.
Final exams untuk sem ini sudah tamat. I takboleh nak express betapa leganya hati I. Hehe. Even sem ni I rasa paling terok, takde satu paper pon yang I satisfied, tapi tapelah. Tawakal jelaa kan. Hee. Esok nak pi tgk baby lecturer yang baru bersalin tu. Pastu nak pi Thai Festival. Sabtu Ahad ni ada short course psl event management kt Hotel Ridel. Pastu nak teman B pi cari kije. Nak dating nga adik adik sayang, Oya, Sha. Oh myyyy banyak nyee plan. Hehe I dah hilangkan semua kebencian I. Sume mood nak sayang sayang je. I rasa tak wajar lah I hukum diri I untuk bende yang belom pasti, bende yang lepas, bende yang bukan bukan. Lebih baik I dekatkan diri dengan Dia, dekatkan diri dengan family, dengan kawan. Kan? Life is a journey of lesson, a bit or too much of it, its you who replan the route. And the rest? Serahkan padaNya. :)
Final exams untuk sem ini sudah tamat. I takboleh nak express betapa leganya hati I. Hehe. Even sem ni I rasa paling terok, takde satu paper pon yang I satisfied, tapi tapelah. Tawakal jelaa kan. Hee. Esok nak pi tgk baby lecturer yang baru bersalin tu. Pastu nak pi Thai Festival. Sabtu Ahad ni ada short course psl event management kt Hotel Ridel. Pastu nak teman B pi cari kije. Nak dating nga adik adik sayang, Oya, Sha. Oh myyyy banyak nyee plan. Hehe I dah hilangkan semua kebencian I. Sume mood nak sayang sayang je. I rasa tak wajar lah I hukum diri I untuk bende yang belom pasti, bende yang lepas, bende yang bukan bukan. Lebih baik I dekatkan diri dengan Dia, dekatkan diri dengan family, dengan kawan. Kan? Life is a journey of lesson, a bit or too much of it, its you who replan the route. And the rest? Serahkan padaNya. :)
Apabila kawan lupa kawan.
Dah memang, kau cari aku time kau susah kan.
Time senang, pernah kau ingat aku?
Dah kau kenapa hah?
Sabar pon ade limit kot bai.
Aku cukup tak suka nak marah orang. Tapi ini bukan satu bentuk kemarahan, tp kekecewaan.
Kau ingat dengan buat jahat dengan kawan yang ni, kawan yang lain akan suka kau?
Pernah aku buat jahat ngan kau? Pernah aku tak jaga hati kau? Pernah aku suruh kau mintak maap dengan aku even bende tu kau yang salah? Pernah? Pernahhhh ke wei?
Tolonglah. Kalau sekadar nak berkawan atas dasar nak tumpang time senang, nak tinggal time susah, nak sendeng time kau susah, nak jauh time kau senang, WHAT THE?!
Ahhh aku cukup anti dengan kawan yang macam kau. Tolonglah. Jangan nak hipokrit sangat. Aku takan marah orang tanpa sebab. Aku cakap kat sini dengan harapan kau baca. Aku nak cakap depan-depan mmg tak ah. Bukan sbb aku takot, tapi aku hormat kau. Aku sayang friendship kita. Tapi kalau cenggini lah kau, hm aku takde alasan nak terus backup kau. Aku takde alasan nak terus jadi pak turut kau. Dah. Aku dah fed up.
Dah memang, kau cari aku time kau susah kan.
Time senang, pernah kau ingat aku?
Dah kau kenapa hah?
Sabar pon ade limit kot bai.
Aku cukup tak suka nak marah orang. Tapi ini bukan satu bentuk kemarahan, tp kekecewaan.
Kau ingat dengan buat jahat dengan kawan yang ni, kawan yang lain akan suka kau?
Pernah aku buat jahat ngan kau? Pernah aku tak jaga hati kau? Pernah aku suruh kau mintak maap dengan aku even bende tu kau yang salah? Pernah? Pernahhhh ke wei?
Tolonglah. Kalau sekadar nak berkawan atas dasar nak tumpang time senang, nak tinggal time susah, nak sendeng time kau susah, nak jauh time kau senang, WHAT THE?!
Ahhh aku cukup anti dengan kawan yang macam kau. Tolonglah. Jangan nak hipokrit sangat. Aku takan marah orang tanpa sebab. Aku cakap kat sini dengan harapan kau baca. Aku nak cakap depan-depan mmg tak ah. Bukan sbb aku takot, tapi aku hormat kau. Aku sayang friendship kita. Tapi kalau cenggini lah kau, hm aku takde alasan nak terus backup kau. Aku takde alasan nak terus jadi pak turut kau. Dah. Aku dah fed up.
I know what it is to feel like your heart is out of your chest and you can't stop crying and wishing things had never changed.
And all you can do to keep from shaking is to just breathe deeper, and deeper, and deeper until the next wave of nausea is triggered but that punch to the gut that comes out of nowhere.
And the pain becomes physical and slowly creeps throughout every extremity of your body.
And you are sure that nothing else could possibly hurt worse.
I've felt that feeling where you feel like dying from the inside out.
Because you can't figure out what happened, or most importantly why, and you're thinking that maybe it was your fault somehow because even though you feel like hating everything, you know deep down that the only thing you hate right now is yourself.
And there must be some reason why.
I've heard that silence that comes after the blow.
The kind that comes from having too much to say all at once, and not having the words for any of it.
And it's so thick you can feel the pressure of it pounding into your ears like a leaking faucet.
And you wish that someone would just say something.
But at the same time, you know you'd smack the hell out of anyone who opened their mouth.
Things don't always have to be okay.
Things will work out.
If you have faith in Him, and if you trusted His promises, that everything happens for a reason, then you will be okay.
InshaAllah. :)
And all you can do to keep from shaking is to just breathe deeper, and deeper, and deeper until the next wave of nausea is triggered but that punch to the gut that comes out of nowhere.
And the pain becomes physical and slowly creeps throughout every extremity of your body.
And you are sure that nothing else could possibly hurt worse.
I've felt that feeling where you feel like dying from the inside out.
Because you can't figure out what happened, or most importantly why, and you're thinking that maybe it was your fault somehow because even though you feel like hating everything, you know deep down that the only thing you hate right now is yourself.
And there must be some reason why.
I've heard that silence that comes after the blow.
The kind that comes from having too much to say all at once, and not having the words for any of it.
And it's so thick you can feel the pressure of it pounding into your ears like a leaking faucet.
And you wish that someone would just say something.
But at the same time, you know you'd smack the hell out of anyone who opened their mouth.
Things don't always have to be okay.
Things will work out.
If you have faith in Him, and if you trusted His promises, that everything happens for a reason, then you will be okay.
InshaAllah. :)
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