i hate the fact that i valued people who tremendously hurt me day by day. i'm the one who keep on apologizing. am i truly is that rubbish to you? yes, i am not in a position of claiming myself as a prefect person. but indeed, i'm trying to be like one. they said you can find a friend in a minute. but for me, to find a truly friend, a friend who can accept you just the way you are might take ages to find. i am deeply hurt. i've been crying the whole evening thinking what else should i do. i hate the fact that i am the only one that being nice to myself. i hate the fact that i still love you, my friend. how i wish all this is just a dream, so when i woke up tomorrow, everything is going back to normal. but everyone knows, this isn't a dream, isn't a fantasy. i'm so tired taking care of others hearts. please take care of mine as well. just a bit of love and honesty will cure the wound. please. it won't cost you a penny. i'm not asking, i'm begging you. PLEASE.