"jangan melihat ke atas, dengan itu kamu akan merasa sedih akan kekurangan diri.
lihatlah ke bawah, dengan itu kamu akan bersyukur dengan apa yang kamu ada"

tiba tiba teringat quotes tu. i think its time for me to stop grieving and crying.
sakit itu kan penghapus dosa. i might have a whole bundle of sins that somehow Allah gave me this sickness and pain for me to realize all the wrongdoings that i've done. kalau dibandingkan sakit mangsa gempa bumi di yogyakarta, mine is nothing. semoga mereka dilindungi. i wish i were there to help. i really am. my sincere condolences to them, may Allah bless them all. to my friends kt sana, take care of yourself.

grow up fathiah.

and the pain is still the king. );

ya Allah, kurangkanlah sakitku ini.

Much silence and a good disposition, there are no two things better than these." (Bukhari)

when i do less talk, doesn't mean that i'm not in the good mood or such. not even if i don't want to be disturb. not even that i don't like anyone or someone else. its just because i think being a silencer is the best way. my words won't hurt others, and even my actions wouldn't harm others. this time being, i think i might enjoyed by not being in a group, i would pretty much help in fixing myself, being alone. i have my social life, but sometimes i'm just need time to held in my strength and build up my motivations.(which is nowhere to be find by now). i'm not as prefect as others, i'm not even close, but i'm trying to be like one. i have my own secrets, my own sickness, my own pain, that somehow i think it shouldn't be bragly shown to others. let me bear the pain myself. inshaAllah He will help me. i do believe that things happened for reasons. He wouldn't tested His servant beyond her acquaintance. afterall, He is The Almighty and The Merciful.




**saya senyap bukan kerana benci,bukan kerana sakit hati, but i'm bearing a huge pain and sickness. saya tak berniat untuk mengeluh tapi saya juga bukan berniat untuk menunjuk-nunjuk. i hope this will clarify everything. take care loves. (:

"And if Allah touches you with hurt, there is none who can remove it but He; and if He intends any good for you, there is none who can keep back His favour; He brings it to whom He pleases of His servants; And He is the Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful." [10:107]

a friend told me, "APPRECIATE ONLY THOSE WHO APPRECIATE YOU. BY DOING THAT, YOU WILL NOT BE HURT". somehow, i think it is true. );

Dari Abdullah r.a katanya : “Aku datang mengunjungi Rasulullah s.a.w ketika beliau sakit, lalu kusentuh baginda seraya berkata “Ya, Rasulullah ! Demammu bertambah teruk.” Jawab baginda “Memang demamku sama dengan dua orang kamu.” Kataku pula, “Semoga anda mendapat pahala berganda pula.” Jawab baginda : “Semoga!” Kemudian sabda baginda pula : “Tidak ada seorang muslim yang ditimpa cubaan berupa sakit dan sebagainya melainkan dihapuskan Allah taala dosa-dosanya seperti pohon kayu menggugurkan daunnya.”