Decline

My health is declining day by day. I hope its not going to go any way further than this. Sometimes, it kills me physically and psychologically. This moment reminds me of the past. When I was in my happiest period, it bite into it and never let me have that ever again. And now, when happiness is lingering around me, when I'm trying to get myself near Him, it starts all over again. A bit of frustration bring me no where but doom. Please Allah, let me get through this, one more time.