i couldn't sleep. i think i know what is happening to me.

dear friend.
you're my best friend. there is undeniable that you're such a good friend. but friend, what happened when your feeling comes in between? we had been in that situation before. sucks yes. it is. i called you this and that. you called me this and that. we hated each other so much back then right? tp last last kita kawan balek. and you told me that you won't repeat the same mistake. i trusted you. but kenapa nak buat balek bende bukan bukan tu? it won't bother me this much kalau you tak tunjuk sangat kat orang about you feeling tu. but in the end, its me yang kene menjawab itu ini. i tak salahkan you. you kawan yang baek. tu kenyataan. tp you, kawan pon ade batas tau. i tak suka nak depan you laen, belakang you laen. itu bukan i. tp i cuma buat kita jadi gap macam ni, tak rapat sangat dah, sbb i taknak you pikir i bagi harapan kt you. i anggap you kawan. as in best friend. kalau you still nak lebih dari tu, atau expect lebih dari tu, then i think its time for us to say goodbye kan? i nak kawan lagi dengan you. you had been there during my ups and downs. mestilah i sayang you. tp sayang seorang kawan. that's all. you kene paham, dalam friendship tak boleh semuanya kita nak. harus give and take. maksud i, tak semua pasal kawan you kene tlg risaukan. some people are just big enough to take care of themselves. dorang pon ade hidup dorang. bukan maksud i, i dan lain lain tak appreciate cara you berkawan, tp kan you, berkawan itu ada caranya. i tahu you dah ada ramai best friends. and i paham kalau ape yg i cakap ni buat you bengang, terasa hati. sapelah sgt suka dicondemn. right? tp i bukan condemn you ni, tp as a friend, i rasa terpanggil tuk bagitau sume ni kt you. you, salahnya apabila you letak lebih dari apa yang sepatotnya dalam friendship tu. cinta. i tak jiwang, i pon tak sempurna tp i cuma tau, kalau you letak cinta and cinta tu tak berbalas, punahlah persahabatan tu. i cakap bukan atas sebab i benci you ke ape ke. i kawan you macam i kawan orang laen. macam mana i caring ngan orang laen, macam tu lah i caring ngan you. takde beza pon you. i mintak maap kalau i buat you terasa. betol bukan niat i. i mintak maap dari ujung rambut smpai ujung kaki. i cakap ni so that you takkan jadi pape pasni. i taknak once orang laen yg cakap camni depan you, you jadi miserable tak tahu nak buat apa. i am so sorry. this could be my fault. take care.