There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are. They aren't just like that because they want to. Something in the past created them, and sometimes it's impossible to fix them.

Just because you can't understand something, it doesn't mean it's wrong

Susahnya nak puaskan hati semua orang. I kadang nak tido pon tak sempat, janganlah demand sangat mintak I ade ngan you setiap masa, setiap minit. Bukan benci tp I memang busy yang amat. Kalau ikot rekod, dah 3,4 hari I tak tido leklok. Sakit belakang toksah cite ah. Bukan nak mengeluh tapi sekurangnya tolong lah paham keadaan. Semua orang nak perhatian, memanglah. Tapi bila I dah bagi sepenuh perhatian kt you, you plak entah kemana. I penat lah macam ni. I sehabis baik jaga hati semua orang. Dalam satu hari 3,4 tempat I pegi sebab nak jumpe kawan yang ajak jumpa. I tak sampai hati nak cakap takboleh, biar pun lambat I pastikan jugak I jumpa depa. Tak kesahla tang tu kan. I ni fon pon kadang I lupa mana I letak, pagi tu I check tgk fon, pastu esok pagi nye plak baru I tgk balik. Bukan setiap masa I duk pegang fon tu je. Facebook dah memang lama dah tak online hari hari macam dulu. Blog ni pon baru nak update ni ha. Hehe. I suka mcm ni. Busy. Sebab I akan lupa masalah ape semua. Ye I tau jaga diri. Selagi boleh, I jaga diri I ni. Mane ade yang kuang ajaq, I terajang je. Hehehe. Okayy nak smbung buat kije sat. Love you. :)

a letter to my dad. :)

assalamualaikum ayah. its been an ages since we hang out together but its never been a day that you won't be waking me up. i can bear listening to mom's mumbling about i'm getting up late and such, but listening to your calm voice, asking me to wake up and solat, its like a trigger for me. but then, i could barely having my breakfast with you. you always being the workaholic and busy. but i really understand that. i really do. when you have extra times before, during your working period with MARA, i wasn't here. i was at the boarding school, trying to get away just to see you after your working time. i can only see you during my weekends, if i'm lucky enough to pass by the guards and wardens. hihi. and now, when you've started your business, it's realllly hard to see you. you've gone through thick and bushes to grow us all, i really appreciate that and nothing could ever replaced or do such things that you have done to us. being able to put up with my childish behaviour and such, oh really, my mom pon couldn't bear much with my attitude of being pampered and cried over small things, but you always smile whenever i cry. and worried of course. hahaa. facing your anger is one of my biggest fear in this world. hah, really, being the youngest siblings in your family really doesn't help you to be a fierce daddy. you are trying your very hard to be garang kan ayah? hahaha. how cute. i'm sorry to burden you with all my needs and unnecessary things that i demand every month, every day. i really hope Allah will give you well-health for me to just show you that you didn't bring me up for nothing. one day, i'll show you, that behind every single child's success, there is a superman behind them. who we called, ayah. :) thank you for everything. thank you so muchh, if i were a bill gates-to-be pon it wouldn't be enough of everything to pay you with. i love you so much. more than what this letter can contain. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY AYAH. YOU'RE INDEED THE MOST FABULOUS DADDY IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD. :)

Ya Allah. sangat penat memang taktahan. tp alhamdulillah dah abes satu program. lagi 2,3 program tgh beratur tunggu giliran. -___- banyak hari tak online. tak hapdet blog bukan sebab malas tapi tak sempat. alah, nak tgk fon pon waktu malam je yang sempat, ini pulak nak online kan. memang tak ah. ohh. saya agak geram dengan kampus saya sebenarnya. time foundation aritu pung pang pung pang cakap boleh credit transfer certain subjects tp ni dah degree cakap tak boleh pulak. apehal? yelaaa dah memang duit makayah saya tu buat tuk bayar yuran berpuluh ribu gitu je. tape tape. BEST SANGAT blaja mende sama 2,3 kali. best wooo. hmph. :I

banyak benda tak sempat nak buat. 2,3 benda nak setel dalam satu hari memang tak sempat la. ni saya nak pegi follow-up kt hospital pon tak sempat. janganla marah kalau ade sape sape yang ajak keluar, saya tak boleh nak pegi. bukan taknak, hah tipulah kalau taknak, tapi dah tak sempat. kalau sempat pon, duk rush je. janganlah marah. saya bukan sengaja. ada komitmen.

and my baby mimie dah balik. yeaaha. at least kalau nak nanges tu ade dia boleh tlg lap. hehe. nak jumpe dia this sunday tp tunggu mimie confirmkan dulu. i love you b.

ohh. and really. some time-out and silence kill those unpleasant feelings. even kene lupakan pasal hati sendiri, i don't mind. sebab our friendship meant so much more for me. cuma itulah. for me to be the first who saying sorry, who saying hi or such, that, really makes me sad. am i really your friend my dear? or am i just a stranger? hmm papelah. the thing is, i won't end this friendship unless you said so. :)

i'm really. really really really tired. gotta get some nap. take care everyone. byee. :)

REZEKI DI TANGAN ALLAH.

Sedih tetap sedih. Apa boleh buat bukan rejeki kelate. Sobs. Tapelah Daud Su, saya tak marah. Kalau bukan kerana tandukan awak tu pun bola tu masuk gawang jugak. Tapelaahh. Tahun tahun depan ada. Kena lagi gomo bia koho parok. Hehe. Sekurang kurangnya negeri lain takdak masuk final macam kitaaa. Yeah!